today-
Re-Rebonded my hair
ai.. well the person said sth wrong with my hair. it is too soft and thin that it will break if the chemical too strong. then if use weaker solution also wont straight tsk tsk.. so leave it like this ba.

did some hw today. read "blue beard"
sigh...
ate alot these days. stuffing myself with junks.
my eyes sore since yesterdae. getting redder. cant wear contacts. haix

hmmm. 04A06 performing on dance fest next fri..keke..
kinda excited. its been ages since i've been on stage for anything. when was the last time? should be during kindergaden times. anyway we are doing this really cute retro dance. :)z

i feel so stressed up these days,
cant really figure out wats wrong inside me. why do i feel so different. why am i so strange. am i that hard to understand? why do i demand so much. why do i ask for anything. why?
perhaps.
i'm jus like this. and sometimes i refuse to change. i reject improvement. be it where. here or there. i try letting go. i dont wanna bound anyone to me. i dont wanan control anyone. i just wanna be myself. i dont wanna get all jealous over anything. so ungracious. cant i stop throwing temper? cant i stop demanding so much? cant i be myself? cant i stop whinning? cant i stop questioning? cant i stop being sad? cant i? cant i? cant i just be a better person?

there's nowhere that i truly wanna go.
a place where i belong
a place that suits my mood
a place to sing my heart out
a place to be me
a place where i learnt to love.
they say seek to understand then to be understood
love. then ask for love.

i am just a mess. sigh...
tell me where to be who i am. tell me. plz.